to elevate the sparks
I better get to sleep so I can nap for 2 hours before the sun is up. I had a fantastic time at the party. It was a hat party with the theme of vintage,so it was fun to see how people got into the theme. I wore a cream satin hat with no brim that people commented looked gypsy. I had the elegant Bohemian gypsy look. Fun to dance.Its all energy, got to know where to put it. Being highly critical, I am quick to judge that a lot of behavior in the room is self indulgent-dancing, drinking, flirting. I was able to see things in a different way, to see it as an opportunity to elevate sparks; wishing people a shavua tov, sharing a Torah about TuB"shvat, giving blessings. I would not have felt comfortable at the party a year ago. Now, my approach is to listen and hear where people are coming from so I can have an understanding. I was able to shift my consciousness from half empty to half full-the party is an opportunity to connect, to be part of community, I don't need to judge that people (myself included) have commitment isues. That takes some sensitivity,"I'm on fire about plugging people in. One man said to me," I have regrets I didn't marry a Jew." echos in my heart. If only people had a more positive identification being a Jew, to be proud.