Its not supposed to be so hard

I wake up in the morning
grateful to be surrounded by children
I'm hiding out in Starbucks
I'm here to be a blessing
to bring beauty and grace to the world
and I feel I'm just moving through

Does it get any easier

Of course it does! the univerese has shaeken your to awaken you  so  hang on tight to your vision. I feel totally stuck. BLAHHHH!!!

Where's the joy, the play the magic?

those who know me I am a mythical being who thrives on the magic of the moment
life hasn't felt like that recently, however, its where we put our attention
is it our environment, is it low seretonin, is it just what is happening in our world. the violence in Israel hits a nerve

I find that I want to slow down,  meditate lots
life is bringing us opportunities to connect every moment.
I admit I want to be sleeping, checking out from the pain
washing my hair is a chore
life is so much more, so much bigger
each breath
open the heart.

Showing up to what is

Its been over a month since posting. Late nights in Crown Heights, flying to the bay area, Berkeley, adventures in Marin and beyond, and returning to the land of LA. I'm aware of the use of water in a drought. Why do the sprinklers go on after it rains? there's a better way to do things
I'm uncomfortable where I'm at, and accept it as an opportunity to be patient, as impatient as I am. It an opportunity to embrace change which is the only constant.
I'm grateful for the practice of being present in this moment.
at this moment....I'd like to go sleep.